8 March 2014 § Leave a comment
When you created the story, maybe what you need is a deep feeling. NOt about how good the story was, but it more than about how great your life.
So, today, i’ve watched Short Term 12. Well, my first impression for this movie, i’m not interesting at all. Then, i think like i should watch this. hmm. It was so good. I really connected with all the characters. It feels like i can felt how hard their life. How scared they are about life. Yes, it was like i’m in there.
I can’t blame myself, that sometimes i need people to help me. I don’t need they know my problems, but i just need to talk with them. I had a tough life before. I’ve been struggling for a long time. My life is like a rollercoaster. Sometime, i thought i was alone. But, i’m not.
I am a stubborn girl. Yes, i admit it. That’s why i’ve been blame the other for my life. Yes, i was wrong.
Then, after i watched this movie, i got a lot of thing.
Life is a rollercoaster. You must deal it when you are in the down. You must be ready when you are in the up.
Anyway, Grace character in this movie, well, really meaningful. She didn’t know what she was doing. But she really did a good job on her workplace. And Jayden, she have an interesting character. She looks lonely and scared. But i can see how Grace helped Jayden. And how Jayden become soft.
They have a same past. Well, i can tell you, this is a really great movie. You should watch it by yourself.
If i have a chance to make a movie, i just want to make a movie like this. The story about how hard life is, but we still have a power to handle it. Seriouslly! :)
7 March 2014 § Leave a comment
Maybe, you will never realize until it happened to you.
And it was happened to me.
Some people said, i really suit to be a writer. They like to support me.
Some of them asked me why i’m not become a DJ on Radio Station. (Well, i hope that too)
Some people said, i have a greatest smile. They look me like i never have a problems. (which is they were wrong)
Some of them asked me what i always dream about or what kind of love story that i always expecting. (or it was my question?)
Some people said, i really small or tiny or mini. I always looked them like they were a big giant. (But not like a monster. Thank God!)
Some of them told me to through the boundaries. I like heard this word, “Outside the box. Outside the box” almost everyday. ( Well,sometimes it made me down but not always.)
Some people asked me why i really like green? I always answer them with one word, “Because it make feel calm.” ( first thing that i just realized)
Some of them keep telling me to be a DJ on the Radio Station. Well, every time they asked me, i will said “It was the dream. I have been dreaming about that job since junior high school. ( Wow! Really a long time. Dream job!)
Some people said, “You have a talent. You have an opportunities. You can do it.” Then they will give me a suggestion. (i’m keep listening them)
So what am i thinking? No, the real question, what i will do next? Just listening them or just pretend like i was trying or just keep quite or just do it?
27 February 2014 § Leave a comment
I just realized, not just, but i always knew that time move really fast. Yea, everyone knows that.
But, sometimes they just miss the important thing about time. Enjoy it. Two words but always forgetten.
Nothing special tonight. I just remembered the thing that i should not wasting. That is a time.
Honestly, it was really hard. Same like when i was wrote this.
But i tried really harder to make it happen. Even it was not perfect. Even i know you will comment my bad grammar.
But thats okay. When someone make a revise about your work, it means they respect your work. When they give you award, they really appriciate with your hard working.
So…. That’s what i thought about tonight. And i want give you a message, please don’t waste my time with waiting (like waiting a bus) i really hate it! No one like waiting, right? And if you don’t want that i waste your time, please don’t waste mine first. Deal?
23 February 2014 § Leave a comment
I never thought before that i will write about this. But, my heart said, i must write this. This is to remind me about how precious my life.
1. I born in the ‘broken’ family. From that, i can learn how to find a true love. I believe when you love someone, you will ‘fight’ to make it work. No matter how hard is that.
2. I born to be a women. Sometimes, i’m curious, if i born to be a man, how it’s that feel? Do i will chasing the girl that i really love? Or i will turned into a bad boy? But honestly, the reason why i love to be a women is that i can wearing a dress, skirt and heels. That makes me feel pretty.
3. I born to be a writer. I like to write. I love poem and fiction story. At least, i have something that make me still alive until now. Or maybe that is the power of my life?
4. I born to be a ‘music’ person. I can’t live without a music. I can’t imagine if i have a life without a music in there. It’s gonna be more boring.
5. I born to be a movie lover. Yes, i can’t admit, i really love watching movie. Sometimes, i learn about life from the movie.
6. I’m a blogger. When i wrote a post on my blog, i always feel happy because i know about this from the first time. Even, my blog is not really famous. But, when i recieved a comment from my readers, i feel happy. I think that’s enough for me.
7. I’m fall in love with green. That color is the one of my character building. You know what, the meaning of green is a peace. Like my name. So, i like to spread a peace to all the people that i met.
8. I’m a moody person. So, i can learn how to control everything in my life. Yes, that’s true! One point!
9. I have perfectionist mother. To be honest, sometimes, i hate my mom. Because she is really love cleaning. She is like ‘Monica’s from Friends.’ But, from her i can learn how to deliver a good thing to someone. Even sometime, i still can’t do that. Yes, i learned a lot of things from her. Sometimes i hate her, but i love her!
10. I have a calm father. He is a not kind of type father that you want. But He is really love me. He will give everything i want, even he don’t have any money. So, i should be blessed have him in my life. Even, he still no perfect. Well, who is the person that really perfect? No one!
That’s my first list. I will write another list in another time.
17 February 2014 § Leave a comment
The reason why i really addicted with west movie is because of the character in there. I never saw the movie which told the story about the main character lived in their parents.
What’s wrong with that?
I saw an independece that i can’t found in my life (for now). With all the tradition in my country, (in my opinion), it was really hard to move out from your parents. Unless, you getting married.
Yes, i’m looking a freedom. This is really embarassing ( for my life especially).
Why i can’t get out?
Because i can’t lose the trap in here. It’s like ‘karma’ ( if i’m not wrong about that word). When you get out from your parents house and they didn’t agree, they will shout you and scare you.
who likes being scare? No one!
But in my age now, i feel like i’m in the BIG TRAP!
My office is really like my second home. But i need a third home. The place that i can show my art, my soul, my mind and my dream. The place that i really belong.
I’m in the scary circle. I’ve been frightened because of the doctrine from my parents. If you do that, you will feel that. So, it is wrong( even the truth that will make you stronger).
Yay, i hate that. So, what can i do?
I need a reason to move out.
Maybe i really need a far away place to move out. The place that i will gonna miss my parents. That is my dream place.
I need to move out from this country. Meet a lot of people out there. Talk with them and be a friends if it is possible.
I remembered the time when i was in Bali. It was so special. It was great to meet a foreign people. Talked with them and they will correct your grammar. Yes, i learned a lot from them in the short time.
Well, what i want to say, i really need a place. Do you have one, God?
16 February 2014 § Leave a comment
- No matter how hard your work, just try and do your best. Then, when you sit in the coffee shop, you will think like this, ” I almost get to my dream!”
- People come and go. Every minute, you will see a different people. Smile with them, because they are your inspiration.
- When you don’t know what to write, look the person in front of you or beside you. Just look and listen.
- Sit beside the window. Look the outside and the inside. Don’t afraid to let your mind get the ideas!
- If you alone, don’t feel alone. Play your music, and let your soul come into your world. Then, the ideas will be a good friends of you.
15 February 2014 § Leave a comment
Life is seems not good lately. The bad things happened. The good things rarely to come.
The dream has stayed in there for a long time. No one touch that. Even my hand want to grab it, but i always failed to reach it.
I can’t understand the things. Time goes by. I can’t stopped the moment.
So, what should i do?
I looked into the sky. I asked all the question in my mind to them.
They keep silent for a long time.
I started to think. I gazed them. I said this, “hey, can you look at me?”
I’m confused. What should i do? My subconscious telling me to not gave up. But my soul, seems different.
I still confused. I don’t know what to do next.
Deep down in my heart, i know they will blow out and show me the true.
The question now, when?